To my Isaac..

Hey Baby,

Mommy just wanted to write you a letter. I'm having a bad day, and I just thought I would tell you how much I love you!

I care about you so much, and love you so much words cannot explain. All this stuff going on right now, is hard, but you are worth it. This whole thing breaks my heart.

No matter what is said about me, or how many people hate me, just please know that i will always love you.

Hello ladies and Gentlemen!

How is everyone? 
I'm doing okay....  This week has been full of baby daddy drama.  My experience and I have joint custody. He works Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. 9am to 7pm. When we were working this Custody out he told me he did Not work on Thursday so I decided to be fair, and let him have him Wednesday. 
Come to find out, my Ikey was at a babysitter Thursday.  Then the babysitter had to work so they passed him along to someone else.
I was furious. I should watch my child while his dad is working. Not a stranger or any babysitter.

His dad says it's not fair if I watch him because i will have more hours with him.... So what!?  It's not about how many parenting hours you have,  it's what's best for the child. 

Did I mention I live in the same home division, two houses down? 

Ugh....  Let's just say I'm fighting back and standing up for myself.
Any one who has been in a controlling relationship can understand just how big of a deal standing up for yourself is!

Any advice?  Anyone else been in a similar situation?

This whole mess is giving me horrible anxiety and making it difficult to control my depression. I have done everything possible to everything right and make it easy, but I'm still getting shoved around.  I love my baby so much,  and I will take care of him and fight for him.